- 31 august 2006 -

I'm A Liar

i've been reading a book with my wife called reforming marriage by douglas wilson. excellent book.

i've written of my struggle with porn/lust in the past and that is part of what he covers in this book. he spoke of how marriage is a representation of the relationship between Christ and the church, which i knew of previously. however, he put it in a way that i hadn't heard before, and it has really impacted my thinking.

almost any guy reading this can identify with being out driving around or whatever and being zoned out on some woman "almost wearing a dress" (as wilson put it in the book). here is a quote from wilson, from pgs 108-109:

when a new family is formed, it is formed around a sexual relationship. the bible teaches us that this marriage relationship portrays Christ and the church. just as the husband and wife are physically united as one, so Christ and the church are spiritually one. when a husband and wife have a physical union along with spiritual harmony, then it provides a good picture of Christ and the church. a couple who have this physical union , but who are constantly fighting are constantly lying about Christ and the church.

a husband and wife do not have the option of saying nothing about Christ and the church. if the husband and wife are driving down the street, and some woman who is almost wearing a dress walks by, and he almost drives off the road, then the whole world knows that his wife has been insulted. but the world does not really know why. the husband is saying that, even though Jesus singled out a people for Himself, and then shed His blood for His elect, He is still willing to gawk at strangers. the lie says that Christ is unfaithful to His elect. so mental or physical infidelity is telling a lie about the spiritual faithfulness of Jesus to His people. Christian couples must protect their sexual and spiritual harmony, keeping that unity free from all disruptions. otherwise we lie to the world about Christ and the church.

so, the concept of lying about Christ everytime i let my eyes wander to another woman has really impacted me and i believe this is another milestone marker on the way to purity of thought and action that i have struggled so long to achieve. of course the reason it is changing is that God is doing a work in me and each time i have made progress is when i have let go of putting my own effort into it. everytime i have tried has ended in failure. only when i give up and quit trying is true progress made.

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- 6 august 2006 -

Why A Tshirt?

another ad that was in hm magazine. reprinted by permission from www.onetruth.com:
why a tshirt? why the message?

in a culture blinded by sensational materialism numbed by sensuality and drowning in apathy one can only hope that a few individuals will continue to stand.

this isn't a self-righteous moral crusade however, where one group of people look at another and shake their heads in disapproval.

this crusade starts from within.

it is our goal that over the next few pages, you will take a good hard look at your values, priorities, and goals.

not because we're perfect, but because we're learning to question our hearts.

because not everything is what it seems.

and the faith that you've grown comfortable with may not be acceptable to the Holy Spirit.

and the God you pray to on occasion just might be ready to burst out of the tiny box you've put Him in. your silly routine of living like everyone else and calling yourself a christ-follower may be over.

the days in which you lived for yourself and seldom opened your eyes to the higher reality may be over. there is no time left for selfishness. no time for playing games with God. no time to sit in your comfortable little life saying someday i'll consider surrendering my life. LIFE is here, waiting for you, He is standing in front of you, and the time has come for a face to face surrender.

this isn't about nominal legalism. this isn't about wasting energy doing religious activities that have nothing to do with the Heart of the one who created us. this isn't about getting you 'real busy' and spending every second of every day going to bible studies and christian clubs. it's not even about making you into a cookie cutter christian who looks like every other person in your church.

it's about LIFE. it's about relating to our Creator. it's about hearing His voice, sensing His touch, and following His direction. it's about getting outside yourself for once, and touching the supernatural.

it's about living a life that defies human explanation. it's about a faith that is just as real as these stapled pieces of paper that you're reading.

about a God who still heals the sick, touches the brokenhearted and sets the captives free.

a God who's not intimidated by sin, immorality, or a dirty past. a God who can see behind the hard mask that's been put up to see the hurting child on the inside. who is willing to deal with real issues and doesn't need to sugarcoat truth because HE is the ANSWER.

are you willing to walk these dirty streets with Him? it may not be glamorous. it may be controversial. it may not be efficient and it may not fit the model you learned in church. but there's nothing more amazing. it's simple. it involves intimacy. it fits in to your life because it encompasses your life. it requires everything. it will demand for you to hand over your haphazard spiritual discipline, your sloppy dysfunctional way of relating to members of the opposite sex, and your blatant lack of care for people who can't give you anything you want or need. it will mean you'll have to deal with the hurts and sins of your past, instead of burying them so they can be unearthed on another bitter painful day. but in trade, you'll experience LIFE Himself.

are you ready to surrender?

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