- 25 december 2004 -

The Suffering Servant


born to die...thank you Jesus...

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- 22 december 2004 -

I Already Did...


i've struggled with what i have come to call a "brainurism" for many years now. it involves the past and a particular issue that i just can't get over. the other day i was contemplating it all, as is pretty common in my life. i was thinking about the whole issue and going over some of the things that i have tried thinking of to get me past said issue. i started to think of how i have tried to find out who to blame for it. it starts with one person, then moves on to someone else or other people, etc...

in my mind, as i was moving through the people i have tried blaming, i unwittingly stumbled into a very short but very poignant conversation with the Lord. i finally said, yelling in my mind, "SOMEONE has to take the blame for this!!!" and the immediate next thing that i heard was:

"I already did."

it was the most calm voice, the most loving, matter of fact statement. it came immediately after i made my statement, which just confirms that it was the Lord. it was not condemning or slamming me, just reminding me and letting me know the fact, it was pure Love...

amazing...

humbling...

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- 19 december 2004 -

11 Years


yesterday was my 11th anniversary...can't believe it...many more to go with my love...

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